Balik kampung~~~ ooo~ balik kampung~~~

dis week blk kampung ngan along~~!!
oh yeah!!! Finally!!! 
mule3 naik train~ punyer la mlu~ nak tau nape??
cuz dlm train tuh juz aini & along jer yg girls~ yg lain sume mamat3 toye jer!
sume bantai tido~ xde yg gentleman langsung!!! hmm~ kalo dieorg offer seat dieorg hmm~~ xtentu ag aini nak duduk~ keke~~ tak lalu I!~ 
hmm~~ kalo da nme pon train~ de la stop3 die an??? train stop kat Kajang, den de la stu minah nih~ kalo tngok luaran.... nampak PERFECT! LAWA! CANTEK! 
konfem kalo abg aini tngok konfem jdi aweks~ keke~ 
aini pon stop usha den dngr lgu kat MP3... alih3 tetibe ku terdngr sora sumbang~
HUHUHU~ Ya Allah! pondan grupenye!!! Giler ah!!! tak malu sungguh!!!
ish ish... org skrang da berani tahap cipan doh! kalo dlu... mne de laki3 lembut ni sume!! xde xde xde xde!!!! da la LEMBUT ko bleh dress as a GIRL??!! 
shame on u!!! like seyesly.. guys... xpayah nak ikot an sangat!
duh duh duh!!! camne nak cari calon nih??!!! ><
hmmm~~~ mule la aini pandang lain jer~~~ aish~~~
bodo~ bodo~ bodo~ melayu plak tuh! dem u!!!
pas stu stu~~ da incident kat train tuh... kteorg naik la Metro bus~
wah~ Malaysia da maju seh!!! hehe~ da lme tak naik bus~
siap kne bgi IC tuh~ along sebuk3 tanye aini... "nape dieorg amik IC ko?"
selamber jer... "snang.. kalo mati xciden.. snang nak detect anak sape"... 
trus senyap die tuh... die tak bleh nak layan sangat.. gedik...
num seat aini 20~ tpi stu jer... seat aini tuh bau muntah! T_T
terpakse la tahan nafas~ huhuhuhu~~
sebelah aini tuh de kapel indon mne tah~ 
laki tue.. kawen pompuan mde... dpan dieorg kapel dri hong kong...
same gak.. laki tue.. kawen pompuan mde gak... amboiiii....
bleh plak dieorg gado dlm bus!!! ><
pasal curtain yg pendek tuh jer!!! duh... tak mati la stakat kne sun kat msia nih hah! cam la negara korg tuh sejok3 bebenor! panas jer aty~~~
yg kapel indon tuh... dri naik bus sampai trun bus.. 
dok chot chet chot chet jer... tak pnat langsung!!!
duh~~~ mcm3 la ragam org nih~ >< 


next entry:: pasal aini kat kampung plak~~ ^-^

Breakdown moment...

last nite is my breakdown moment...
but I hold my tears cuz I juz feels dat it's not worth again...
not again...
no use if I kept on crying for d same reason all over again...
I'm being super pathetic cuz my stupid acts...
But believe me...
I'm just a normal girl...
Really really really a normal girl...
I still can't erase d pain she caused me wen I was a little...
It's not even my choice to live wif her family...
It was d adults decision...
I'm just a kid back then!
If I knew things wud turned out dat way...
I swear to God, I wud run away...


I must admits dat she's gud at acting nice...
Another double face baby~~~
what d hell~~~
She got no serious problem till she got herself pregnant...
Her mom let her bf stay over in her house... even my mom said no...
Her mom let her having all d fun she wants...
Her aunt help wif her studies...
Her aunt bought a Sony laptop for her...
She got d latest Sony phone that I ever dream off...
In what way???... 
she says she fuck sumone else cuz she's stress???
She can lie to my mom...
but not to me...
I knew she trying to fool everyone...
I kept my mouth shut cuz I really can't say anything...
People will point out to me...
to me.. only me...
I'm d bad one...
I'll always b d bad one...
Everyone in my family says...
I'm changed since I knew kpop...
They didn't even knew what my problems are...
I kept many many secret to myself...
When I went to makcu's house...
Everyone kept saying bad things about my mom...
Makcu... noni... pakcu.. adin...
When I went to melaka house...
Everyone kept saying bad things about my dad...
BUT...
I only can keep my mouth shut...
My mom didn't believe me...
My dad won't believe me...
Wat more can I do???




HAHA...
Life is pathetic to me...
I'm being to other people...
but I'm different person in my family...
HAHA..
I'm stupid~~~

Math! Account!!! work~~ :P

Activity for today~~~
1-Finish my unfinished work~ :P
2-Answer incoming calls...
3-Entertaining d fussy customer~ =3=
4-Help Kak Linda with Account~ T-T


Actually...
I really really really really really hate account, math & addmath!!!
kyaaaa!!!~ It's so confusing!!! >o<
I prefer something simple~
"Hey!~ I'm Miss Simple!"..
kejadahnyer~~~ 
but yeah.. I dislike math since I was born into this world~
means I hate really starting 20 June 1990!
I failed math in my SPM...
Got 7D for it... 9G for addmath... my account??? 8E... 
told chu~~~ 
I'm not good at calculating numbers!
but... as my mom says.... 
"till when??? wen u r going to hve a child... u must b smarter for them"..
"kyaaaa!!!~ can I get maid to help them wif their homework??"
"r u going to hve a maid in ur home?"
"oh yeah!~ I need one... hmmm~~ not one but 10 of them!~"
HAHA!!! NOT A CHANCE!!! They going to flirt around wif my hubby! 
so it's a NO NO NO!!!
hmmm~~ back to math & account~~~
Even I know I'm not so gud wif math but....
seeing Kak Linda struggling finishing her work...
I went to her... looking at her computer...
"banyak ag ker kak??"
"hmm~"
"nak dayah tlg ker?"
"kalo dayah ngah free, tlg akak asing3 kan payment voucher nih..."
"oh.. okay..."


Ah~~~ must say...
wen Kak Linda focusing... while me doing d work...
it's was SUPER QUIET!!! T___T
so boreddd~~~ in ma head.... I kept singing..
*BANG & ZELO-NEVER GIVE UP*
I dun know but d song kinda inspires me... LOL!
I dun want to be freaking annoying person so I kept my mouth shut...
From 11.00am till 13.00pm...
I set a record!!!~ 
two hours w/o silly jokes...
World seems so dark & gloomy... :P
in d evening...
trying sum "gag time" wif kak amal~~~
God... It's feels so good to laugh!~ 
keke~~ kak amal makes me go LOL so hard~~~
kept clapping my hand hard~~~ 
*another virus from kpop*


from afar... kak linda says:
"Amal... dayah da blur ler tuh... too much information"..
"Eh? ye ker kak?? Haha~ cian die~" 
"ish!~ ne de!~ slh tngok larh!~"
"Dayah~ nasib baik, kak amal kuat ag nak walk around tau"
"Kak amal nak soh dayah wat dukung akak ker?"
We both laughed hard~~~
Another fun moments wif both of dem~~~
den we both went to Kak Linda~~~
just chatting & waiting for kak linda to put sum final touch in her work... 
after dat, we went home together~~~
Kak amal sent me home~~~ again~~~
I'm getting lazy walking back home... ><
Keke~~~ bouth my math laziness....
I'm trying to learn it~~
same as I'm try to learn hangul now...
Both them might burn my brain...
but...
it's for my own good~~~
so I'm going to work hard!!!
Go go go!!!!

aini_aiden

I had a bad day.. T_T

ary nih...ayah antar aini cam biase...
die stop kat petronas.. isi minyak n beli rokok..
ary nih.. aini pakai heels... well.. not actually heels... but... 
it can b consider as heels... 
as I walk.. I look at my office.. "nape ramai sangat org nih?"
"de seminar ker?" "dieorg kne tipu ker?".. tak masuk akal btol!.. ><
suddenly... OMG!

aini jatoh! kat dpan jln plak tuh! aduh aduh aduh ADUH!!! T____T
sakit kot... but nak cover wat3 mke tak sakit langsung..
dlm aty.. "mak... sakit!!!"..
aish~~~ dengan nih saya mendeclare an..
"LELAKI MALAYSIA NIH TAK GENTLEMAN LANGSUNG!"..
de ke patot ker die bleh golak jer??!
damn u jerk! mentang3 la I nih xlawa cam Nora Danish ker~ IU ker~ ko bleh GOLAK??!
sampai aty!!! jahat!!! isk isk isk...
hmmm~~~ sampai ofis. trus tngok lutut...
HUHU.. an berdarah! patot la sakit!..
due due lutut plak tuh... but kanan paling PARAH~~
seha soh aini tlg beli tissue but aini reply.. "akak xbleh kuar.. tdi jatoh"..
trus die reply.. "UH?! akak jatoh?! katne? sakit tak?"..
HUHU... bleh tanye.. sakit tak??~ mesty ah sakit sayang oooooiii.. ><
dri seha nak dtg lambat cuz pegi land office trus muncul kol 9 sharp..
amboiii~~~ laju jer... ><
kak amal masuk office..
"akak~~~ tdi dayah jatoh~~"
"uh?? jatoh? katne?"..
HUHU.. tempat jatoh adelah sangat3 penting ye kwn3..
"kat dpan petronas"..
"da basuh da luke tuh? nak tngok"
"blom.. xnak ah... sakit.. um..."..
"aduh! dayah! basuh ngan dettol cpat!"..
"xnak xnak xnak!!~ dayah da sapu ngan minyak gamat da"..
kak linda masuk~~
"akak~~ dayah jatoh tdi"..
HAHA~~ sume org kne tau pasal nih!~ :P
"uh? katne? nape? berangan ler tuh... ingat kat donghae ker?"
"kat petronas... ne de!~ tak la!~" ><
"um~ meh cni.. mkn bihun goreng~ g ajak kak amal"..
"okay~~"
KAK AMAL
"akak~~ org nih xnak byr fees larh"..
*pssshh.. kak linda panggil*
"hah? xnak byr?
*pe??*
"aah.. xnak byr"..
*KAK LINDA PANGGIL*
"oh~ bgi kat paktam larh"
*UH??!*
(aish!~ kak linda panggil!~)
(oh.. okay) =3=

LUNCH TIME!~ MAC D!~ MAC D!~ MAC D!~ OMG~ I'm so loving it!~ ^o^
kak amal::
"akak~~ mental moody an ary nih"..
"aah... akak yg tgur die dlu"..
"hmmm~~ da agak da~~ terase lerh tuh"..
"tau da~ cuz pgi tdi die wat mke kat dayah".. =__=!!

kak linda::
"biar la die dayah... ske3 aty die jer nak moody memanjang"..
"um.... okay..."
"akak~ makcik cleaner tuh pon moody gak"..
"tu larh~ snang3 soh die quit jer la.. bsok dayah gtau die eh"..
"uh??~ dayah??!~"
"ye laaa.."

alamak.. bsok.. kne gtau makcik tuh??~
huaaaaa~~~ tak nak~~ =3=

ps: tangan da pnat~~ next time jer la post pangjang3~~ malas punyer aini~~ :P

aini.. take life as a lesson..

My life has turned upside down already...
Office life... real life.. facebook life... twitter life... 
All down already... 
It's all my fault...
my stupid fault...


Office life...
basically not me... but must say..
now she kinda pay for it...
Everyone kinda hate her... 
Everyone know her true color now...
I'm not even there wen they found out bout her...
so I just keep my mouth shut...
it's between them... 
I dun want to know...


my facebook & twitter life...
messed up already...
my bro unfren her...
cuz he tot I'm being such a lesbian


I pissed off wif one of them...
I meant like...
wen I DM her... 
means I want dat convo being private.. 
it's only us... but she tweet bout it..
makes me kinda sad & "terase sangat3"...
Thanks la eh...
so I w/o having any second thought...
just unfollow her...
now... 
I regretted it...
cuz I'm being childish.... again...


I'm sorry...
u r such a gud fren.. gud saeng of mine...
maybe it's for d best... 

aini_aiden

Hello~ hello~
so long didn't update this blog~~
juz dun hve d rite mood to write anytime....
hmm~~ now I feel like to write one cuz of him...
Him is my practical fren...
He been working here...
He likes kpop.. juz like me...
He more into SNSD.. 
unlike me.. 
who been into Super Junior~
He got blog...
I read his entry... 
Surprised?? hmm~~ 
what surprised me is...
how he keep those smile on his face even he suffer that much??


hmm~~ he must b angry if he knew I wrote this...
How am put this??
His dad remarry after his mom gone...
I did know bout that.. cuz he told us once..
but.... 
He suffers so much...
really...
If I was in his place...
I wud died cuz of d stress & sadness...
He tried to put his happy mask on..
pretending all okay...
pretending to b happy wif his Uni frens...
but...
wen I read his blog..
I almost choked..
cuz I hold my tears too long...


I made promise to myself.. 
I wont cry over simple things anymore..
been make sum new year resolution..
Alhamdulillah.. 
Everything went my way so far.. 
Thank you Ya Allah.. 


There are sum problems...
between us..
I juz can feel it...
but I try to b strong...
I'm not me anymore...
meet wif sum dentist & fix my tooth & stuff..
learning hangul is hard...
been trying my luck on part time job..
hmmm~~ 
lately catch up wif flu...
so sick~~ so sick~~
nothing much really..
gotta go now~~


my next entry is bout a boy..
it's not Donghae anymore...
makes me fall in luv wif him...
hard to erase but must erase him...
He's not my type..
I'm not his type...
we r not belong together...
I will tell everything bout him later~~~
He comes from another broken family..
He loves his dad more den his mom...
He been trying to commit suicide once..
He's cold but got warm heart...
So confused wif my own feeling.. =_=!
The next entry in Uee Kim. 
I met him there..

My 1st Anniversary!!!!~

Last of 6th Nov is my 1st anniversary with my own ELfamily!!!!~
Weee!!!~ we are already one year old!!! Haha.. never thought that... hehe...
I know I'm rather complicated myself... It's must be hard on you guys rite?..
Melly unnie... Lia unnie.. my two awesome unnies!!!
Even we are far apart... our hearts is one rite??!~
Hyosonn saeng... Tiqah saeng... my two fav dongsaengs!!!~
We still haven't meet yet even we living in the same country~
Hehe~ I think Malaysia is BIG ENOUGH to travel alone.. hihi...
Tiqah even dreams bout me being a baby~ huahahaha~
maybe it's cuz I'm always being "gediks" wenever I talk to her~
Hyosonn aaa.. we almost can meet up when "Hari Belia" or when you came to Kajang visit your younger sis..
But I blew it.. didn't I?.. I'm so sorry ne... I don't think I deserve to be a real friend to you...
Actually... being an ELF...
I got to know many wonderful people..
I got to know and be friends with them..
Safura unnie..Sunie... Fatehah.. Safi.. Afiqah.. Fiq.. Nani.. Ezzati... Atiqah saeng... Sry saeng... Kira saeng.. Nia saeng.. Another Kira... Nana... Yuni.. Ahn... Izra saeng.. Izzy saeng.. Mirul... and many many other ELF all around the world!!~

My life before this...
It's not life..
I guess you knew it, right?
But slowly... I learnt..
slowly... I accept it..
Little by little...
sometime I just can't take it.. broke down to tears...
You guys advised me to be strong... stay strong...
Even we had fought cuz me being so complicated..
but we being forgiven right?..
We forgive each other like real family does...
Don't think me .. as a good person...
cuz I'm not...
You guys know it rite?..
I swore a lot...
I did bad things more than my good deeds..
I'm being this good because...
Actually...
I'm touched.. by your love...
I never never thought someone could love me like this...
I meant like.. Even my real sisters.. being busy with their life...
You guys... Kak Linda .. Kak Amal... Super Junior...
had taught me about love.. how to treat people right...
How to be strong and be positive... think of Allah...
Allah had sent you guys to me...
to look after me...
to cheer me up when I was down...
to wipe my tears away when I cry...
to be there whenever I need someone to hug me...
to tell me...that...
someone is watching over me...

I think .. it's all for now...
One sentence... for you guys...
Thank you so much for taking care of me...
I love you guys so much!~