Ainiisme already passed her 100th blog.. ceh.. i miss it!~

A good day for everyone !!! 
Oh Yeah !!!.. it's my birthday!! weee !~ 
Hehe.. okay.. 
it's supposed to be one of the happiest day of my life...
but ...
i'm not happy  ...
i'm happy ...
but...
it's just ...
none of my family members wished me...
it's kinda sad ... to me...
aren't they not remember this date?..
I tried to be ...
I tired to ignore ..
but when ..
your own parent didn't wish on your birthday ..
I don't know how to react ...
maybe they forgot ...
maybe they will wish later at night..
maybe they just busy with their life...
I don't KNOW !!!!...


this morning ..
even when I left for work..
my mom didn't said anything ...
my dad didn't kiss me...
okay.. what's wrong there?..
I cried alone in the office...
maybe I asking too much ..
It's my fault cuz being too greedy ...


at the office ...
Kak ain bought me a present..
Haven't open it yet ...
I don't know what it is..
She gave me a box of chocolate too ...
She trying to be nice to me..
Okay.. I'll accept her kindness..
Thanks Kak Ain...
Kak Amal sang Happy Birhtday song to me ..
Sweet !~ Hehe.. 
Abg Wan wish me this morning too ...
Kak Linda wasn't here..
She took medical leave ...


now.. i'm getting head ache..
well.. thanks to the smokers ..
my head hurts...
ToT


Tika didn't wish me yet ...
hurm.. never mind laaa..
She can do whatever she likes...
I'm just won't care anymore...
I'm tired actually..
play all these games ...
play with my emotions ...


Thanks to Sunie ..
cuz sang "It has to be you" last night ..
cuz sang "Happy birhtday" song in her unique way.. 
cuz talk to me till I fall asleep again ..
Hehe ..


Thanks to Melly unnie..
for the wonderful text message..
You are the second person to wish me.. 
ps: I luv candy!~ >o<


Thanks to Tiqah saeng ..
for the sweet & nice message ..
You are the third person to wish me...
We'll be strong together !!..
Saranghae !!..


Thanks to Hyosonn saeng ...
for the memorable message ..
Dae.. I'll remember your advice well..
Saranghae !!!..


Thanks to Yana for the wish ...
Hopefully we can grow old together ..
hang out often after this cuz I miss chu!!.. >o<
I luv chu my BFF !!.. ^o^


Thanks for the wishes my friends ...
I love u guys !!!!
For every wish is a pray for me ...
Thank you for that .. 
No matter what..
I'll always believe in you ...
Now and forever ...
Let's be happy together ...

ainiimsorry

what should I write?..
time change.. people do change ..
I'm sorry if I did change..
maybe I shouldn't make my office life into my private life..
It was just an excuses .. stupid excuses... 
I'm sorry cuz I'm hurting you ... 
by not do what I should do to make you happy..
Just like you did when I was down.. cry ... 
when you are down.. sad or cry ...
I'll turn the table around this time...I'm sorry cuz I did ignore you .. 
by not saying Hi .. or ask "How are you"..
I'm just don't want to make you sad even more ...
I'm just let you find your other friends to cheer you up..I'm really really sorry ...
That's all I could say now... 
never understand a girl like me.. 
cuz even I didn't understand myself ...
cuz it's damn complicated ... 
till I don't know where else to go ..
even I didn't know what I want .. 
I'm just so caught up in my own world ..
alone...
faking my laugh..
faking my smile..
in front of them ..
just to make everyone happy ...
not to worry much about me ...
I'm okay .. I'm really am ..
"somebody to love or be loved by somebody" .. 
just an idiom for me to feel a lot better about myself ...
Life is ... 
so miserable right now ..
Life is... 
it's just hard on me now ..
Life is ..
so ... 
but ... 
Please take care of yourself more ..
Please smile more ..
Please laugh more ..
Please be patient with me ..
Let's cherish each other soon. 
I'll be waiting !


this post by ainiisme ...


for SungJung..  Nia.. Tiqah .. Sry.. Tiqah.. Sunie.. Izzah .. Hyosonn .. my unnies .. my friends ... 


a lot of LOVE from me .. to u guys!!! 
SARANGHAE !!!

my current life..

now .. aini busy wif my office..
sometime jer b crazy at fb & twitter ..
aini noticed something is missing but aini try ignore ...
aini taknak sakit an aty3 sape3 ag .. aini takut ...
aini ni jahat ...
even my life.. is kinda up side down ..
with office problems..
with kak ain ...
with my diet program ...
so if they wasn't there for me.. I understand ...
I do get it ...
kak ain .. went too much ..
she's became so rude.. so I'm returning d favor to her ..
it's hard ... memang susah ...
cuz aini da ckp aini jnis susah nak lpe an ..
so everyday I'm try my best not to explode in front of her ...
d best way is .. to not to speak with her ...
ignore her ...

life with kak linda & kak amal was fun ..
but kak linda went for the interview last thursday ..
can I hope she will stay with me?..
in dat company?..
ah ~ it's really hard ...
but I hope she will succeed ...

I'm going to quit my job soon ..
can't handle it anymore..
too much pressure...
many people dislike me more ...
I'm only with Kak Linda.. Kak Amal .. Abg Wan ... Abg Madi ..
That's all..
En Zaid.. En Saiful ... Abg Shairul.. En Haidzar... Abg Ubai .. Wife En Zaid .. etc etc ..
many people loves kak ain more..
well.. that's proves im the rude one..
*sigh*

well..
for those whom I called them my family ..
im sorry cuz I did ignore you guys ..
cuz right now..
i'm just wanna b happy & try my best not to cry ...
wish me luck on my diet program ~
I lost 1kg today ~ which is good.. cuz I do ate a lot!~ >o<

I miss u guys..
I really really really miss chu guys..
hope I can stop d time ... where we gather together & b happy ..
but this was d reality ..
it's harsh.. but we must b happy & try to live it ..
I hope u guys eat well.. live well ...
Happy together is a good memory to me ...