Life ... is pretty confusing now ..

now ...
I'm writing my life story...
U can either read it or leave it ...
cuz I'm going to talk bout Donghae again ...
Haha .. 
well .. let's just say "I'm addicted to him"
sorry sorry sorry .. but seriously ...
I wanna talk bout him now ...
Yesterday .. I'm being so moody ..
I skipped my work .. 
I don't know what happen to me ...
but suddenly my mood gone ...
just like that .. 
maybe because of Donghae and Sammie ..
I'm felt like ... useless person...
Don't ask me why I feel like that ...
Please don't ...
I did delete my twitter ..
*not for a long time*
I tried not to think bout anything...
cuz I'm tired ... of crying ...
I'm tired .. of being like this ...
so before breaking fast, I did delete my twitter ...
but when I ate, suddenly .. I felt something's wrong ..
After that, I reactive the account back ...
maybe it's not the time ...
not the right time yet...
bout sammie ..
maybe it's time for me to face d reality...
he's gone.. 
he's safe up there ...
he's happy somewhere..


so back to Donghae again ~
Haha !! I told U didn't I?!
*sigh*
okay .. don't read my post if it's annoys you ..
seriously ...
He did tweet !!! lalala ~ I'm so happy ~~
but not his latest ...
it's just some random pictures he took from d internet ..
but but .. I'm happy ..
at last he did tweet in a good mood!! ^o^
wanna see it?.. 
want want want?..
here !!!

Good night !!! See U in Dream !! ^^

He's so cute right?.. right?.. right??!!
ah ~ I did dream of him ~
siwon ~ heechul too ~
haha ~ 
cuz last nite, I mentioned these three names ..
CAPTION..
"LOVE TRIANGLE!"
Haha .. I found new one too..
It's Nana Kim..
She's seem nice ..
My huny so nice to me ~
She's okay with me having Nana ~
Haha ..
We only doing it for fun ~


Tiqah called me last nite ...
but couldn't talk as usual ..
I can't run to my bedroom cuz last nite ..
there's only my mom and me ...
so I answered her call in front of my mom ..
NERVOUS!!
I did tell u guys ...
my actions in front of my family way different ...
from U knew me from the internet ..
Couldn't talk & laugh like I used too ...
feel bad cuz she call me in d 1st place ...
hurm ... will do something for her dis evening .. ^-^


Hyosonn already arrived at her house safely ..
She tag my name to tell me .. 
Gud dongsaeng ~
We had a little talk ...
as usual ..
I'm borrowed her ears and shoulder ..
*sigh* 
seems like I'm not their unnie at all ...
cry over little things ...
not being strong enough ...
always weak whenever I was alone ...
ah ~ I must stay strong !!!
Aini !! go go go !!


Nia in the making of writing fan fic ..
already read the part one - Fairy tales -
I wish my life were like a fairy tale ..
Haha .. by the way ...
it's a good story ...
will keep looking forward to read it in d future .. ^-^v


what am I doing now?..
I don't so anything ...
listen to song in my MP3 ...
bored alone ..
Kak Linda already on leave ..for Hari Raya ~
Kak Amal busy .. dun want to disturb her ...
will write again soon ~
SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!! ^o^

Donghae injuries ...... on Let's Go Dream Team ...

today .. I wanna post bout him again ...
I'm sorry if I did annoy anyone ...
but I really care about him ...
now ... here I am ..
can't sleep .. two days straight ..
on d first day .. maybe Sunday ..
I did tweet "Happy Sunday" to him ...
as usual I told him  to b happy & have a wonderful days ..
like always ...
but my heart does that thing again ...
afraid anything bad happens..
I did mentioned him again ...
here's my tweet ..

aini_aiden AiNi 

@donghae861015 good luck on Dream Team & plz dun get hurt like U used too ... my heart will b in pain if U r hurt ~ TwT so take care!!

so there it was .. 

I did told him right?...

so I went out with my mom ..

done some window shopping ...

after breaking fast ..

I tweeted again ..

before I knows d truth ..

1st tweet::

aini_aiden AiNi 

@donghae861015 did U had a gud time?... hopefully yeah ... >w<

2nd tweet::

aini_aiden AiNi 

what's this??... scroll down and find out d truth .. 

did I told U to take care right?.. @donghae861015 are U okay?.. 

GET WELL SOON!

His injury seems bad .. I couldn't look at d photos ...

I'm afraid I might b crying harder than I should be...

till now .. I didn't look ...

but I know it's bad ...

He had to cancelled two schedules because of this...

this is bad ...

Yesterday .. I cried alone.. in my bedroom...

I can't stop the tears ...

I cried because I lost my fav cat again ..

it's sammie ...

I can't find him at anywhere ..

I gave up ...

Sammie ah ..

thanks cuz loving me .. as your owner ...

thanks cuz always sleep beside me...

thanks for your sexy pose ...

i won't forgets those ..

can't erase our memories ...

my mom told me to change the blanket ...

but I told her ..

"bagi aini masa.. sammie pnah tido kat sini ngan aini"..

sammie ah ..

I'm sorry ya..

I'm really sorry cuz didn't look for you during heavy rain...

You know I'm scared of thunder right?..

when I know you went missing ...

I always pray that you will find our house..

our home...

why you can't find our home?..

it's always be a house full of cats..

where are you at?..

sammie ah ...

i'm sorry ...

i'm really really sorry ..

please forgive me ...

now ...

Donghae's hurt ...

but I can't do anything ...

like always ..

I always cry ...

cry that can't do anything ...

it's hurt ...

I wanted to feel the same pain ...

but..

i'm not brave enough to cut my hands ...

to see d blood coming out ...

to feel pain ...

i'm not that strong ...

now.. Donghae ah...

You'll be my SUPERMAN..

I'll always believe that ...

There will be a MIRACLE so you can get well soon...

please .. 

Donghae ah ..

Don't and never feel sorry ..

we just wants you to get better fast...

We need to smile that smile again..

We need to dance with you .. happily ...

We need to sing along with you...

We need you to stand proudly with your brothers...

I'm sorry cuz being selfish here ...

but Donghae ah ..

Do you know..

that someone will wipe her tears alone...

each time she thinks that you are alone?..

Do you know ..

that someone will cry cuz she helpless ..

even she wanted to be with you..

to help you ...

but she just a normal girl ...

Do you know ..

that someone were waiting for you to get well.. 

just to see that smile on your face...

So don't be sorry ...

Never be sorry ...

I just need you to be healthy again...

Even I laughed hard ...

Do you know that ..

it's just to hide my tears & swollen eyes?..

I'll always pray for you ...

love always ...

take care ...

I'm sorry..

Fasting month is here ~

Super Junior made their come back 
in fasting month ... huhu ...
at first I was like ...
I'm not going to cheer for them ...
as I knows how my mom will nags ..
At 29 July she already told me this ..
"aini .. bln pose nih kurang3 an lah kpop ko tuh"..
I'm just stay quiet .. cuz I'm a little bit sad ...
so ...
starting 1 August ...
I figured out a way how to make...
she let me with my kpop ...
easy ...
Help her with the house chores ..
That'll do .. Yes.. It's work ~
Everyday I woke up before her ...
Everyday after work, I'll go to kitchen before she does ...
It's a bit tiring work .. 
but I set my mind ..
my goal is not to make my mom blames on kpop again ...
Super Junior make their comeback at Music Bank 
last Friday at KBS World ..
I was worried cuz they all watching "Bones"..
but at 6.00PM .. my big bro suddenly change the channel to 391 ...
YAY !!!! ^o^
It's was Infinite time .. so I was like ..
Oh !! masak nasi !!..
"abg ~ kalo super junior panggil aini tau!"..
run to the kitchen ..
"mak.. nak masak berapa?.."
*wash wash wash*
"aini!!.. super junior!!!"..
Oh Oh Oh !!!! .. *run to living room* *sit*
SUPERMAN start!!!..


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My eyes didn't BLINK for once !!!
my bro asked ..
"mane yg ko suke?''.
I kept quiet .. but when Donghae's turn .. 
I did smile ...
he said .. 
"yang nih ker?"..
*QUIET* 
when Mr Simple ...
"AINI SUKE YANG NIH!!!.."
*points at DONGHAE*
Haha ~ 
My big bro ignored me and went to read newspaper..
ceh ... die tanye den die ignore .. pe larh ...
hehe ~ 
but the thing I like about my bro is ..
He always know even I didn't told him anything ..
^______^
He's my guardian angel at my home ...
Always watch out for me ...
Always stand up for me ...
now ...
my parents can't say anything bout kpop ...
cuz he's on leave for one week ...
this fasting month is much better than last year ~
Hopefully it did gets better every time ... 


Happy fasting all ~