You

You told me to take my time ...
but why now U ignoring me?..
I dun know what else I should do ...
I dun know what U been thinking ...
The reasons are that I wanna stop
being a fan girl ..
cuz my parents were always against this ...
cuz someone told me that..
"I'm the annoying girl"..
cuz I need to stop loving Lee Donghae...
This is the real world ..
If I didn't stop now ...
I'll fall deeper for Donghae ...
I don't want that to happen ...
I'll be hurt if seeing him with other girl ..
I know I'm not that strong ...
In this reality ..
We got to face it ...
Someday .. somehow ..
We need to stop ..
this is my time...
Please don't hate me for this ..
Please...
Ah ~ now I'm stuck ~
I dun noe what should I go with ..
Stay or leave .??
There's hundreds of times..
That I said it thousand of times ..
but along the times..
There's always someone will hold my back ..
There's always someone told be to believe ...
Thanks ELF ..
You guys are the GREATEST FAN CLUB ..
That I ever known ...

Aini and him ...

What ever ..
I will keep my faith in him ...
what ever ..
I will believe in him ...
Yes..
No other than him ...
Him .. He ...
my smiling angel ..
always outta my control ...
always shock me with nice smile ...
always try to be there for me ...
Now..
this is ...
our happy times ...
I'll smile even I hurt ...
I'll laugh even I'm about to cry...
cuz I know ..
You hurt more than me does ...
You hide your tears behind your smile ...
I'll stay ...
Forever ...
Till death do us apart ...

AiNi ... Life ..

my life now ..
kinda hard to say...
I dun know but ... 
it's totally hard to say...
I know they all busy with their life..
can't be so selfish ...
can't think about myself now..
I should b mature enough to live alone ..
Yeah.. that's right ...


last these three days ...
is when my latest "fight" with my mom ...
Yes.. again ... =__=
She taking care of Azim now .. *d baby*
I know she loves d baby .. it's just ..
she didn't say it to my face directly.
she keep giving excuses ...
I know she's tired ...
but.. 
I'm tired too ...
I'm a working person now ..
She should at least understand that ..
the baby's family seems doesn't care at all ...
I hate when ..
we fight about this ...
cuz I know.. that ..
the family is laughing behind us ...
the night when I cried till my eyes swollen ...
it's become so red ..
my little bro said that I should know my past...
my past where my aunt..
taking care of me when I was little ..
Hey boy.. 
I understand that ...
I still remembers that ...
but ... 
my mom should understand me better!
Please!! I'm begging you...
they not worth it.. like seriously ..
U can say that I'm cruel ..
U can say that I'm mean ...
but I'm only protecting my mom!!!...
I don't want her to fall sick again!!!
I don't want her to get tired!!!
It's okay if I had to do the house chores alone...
it doesn't bother me that much ...
but please!!!...
stop take care of the baby...
like seriously ..
I don't like how they treating us!!!!...
when everyone were against me ...
when I thought nobody is beside me ...
my big brother called me ...
told me to be strong ...
He say this to me ..
"Kalo aini marah.. lpas jer kat apis .. jng lpas kat mak"..
I told him ...
"aini tak marah mak but anak makcu tuh jht!"..
"aini tau aini jht"..
then he ask me to pass d phone to my mom ..
He fought with my mom ...
well .. I'm grateful cuz I got big bro like this ..
cuz only he knew how I feels inside ...
even I didn't tell him anything ..
but still ...
about this baby matter ..
I never told anyone ..at facebook ...
at twitter .. Yes... but not so often ...
but still he knows ...
He is the best brother in the world !!!.
I love him ~~


that's all.. 
well.. i'm tired to type ...
huhuhu .. till then ..
take care & be happy ~
I LOVE YOU.

AiNi can't erase her hatred.. what to do?.. Go watch funny romantic drama series

Okay .. this post not mainly about kak ain ..
damn .. that girl .. were really something...
today .. 
she's being mean again...
she dun want to talk to me..
she asked me to do tons of work ...
she didn't help me..
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER??!!!
like a bitch .. she always being like that..
now.. like Yus..
I'm super super hating her ..
I don't care if I'm being bad girl again ...
cuz I know..
if I'm still friends with her..
she'll hurt me more..
so better I'll be d bad one once again ...
-FINISHED-


Lately ..
I been watching "Lie to Me"..
I love the plot & how the story goes ...
It makes me believe in MIRACLE..
It makes me believe in LOVE...
It makes me believe in LEE DONGHAE.. *Haha*
Hyeon Gi Jun is a guy who being hurt by his younger brother..
Gong Ah Jeong is a girl who being hurt by her best friend..
It's was their DESTINY to meet each other...
I love the sound track too!
The OST I ove the most is when..
They sang together in "home warming"..
Its was called .."Lovin' Ice Cream"..
The time when Hyeon Gi Jun fall for her...
The time when Gong Ah Jeong fall for him ...
They fall in love at the same time.. at the same place ..
awwwhh.. SWEET!!! *kot!!!~*
It reminds me a bit of Donghae oppa did to me.. 
*hehe.. day dream time* lalala ~
Hyeon Gi Jun always tried his best to make her happy...
Gong Ah Jeong always tried to hide her feelings...
There's so many romantic scene..!!!
There's LOT of kissing scene too!!!..
I love when Hyeon Gi Jun always make Ah Jeong happy ...
He stay beside her...
He stay cheerful even his world is about to crash down...
cuz he knew.. Ah Jeong suffered a lot (?)...
My heart beats fast when Ah Jeong falls..
I love when Ah Jeong were sad .. 
Hyeon Gi Jun always find ways to cheer her up ...
I know it's only a drama ...
but ....
sometime I wish...
I will get a boyfriend/husband like him..
Huhuhu .. 
It's nearly IMPOSSIBLE right?..
but the chances are still there~
Haha ~~

So romantic.. the scene ... together.. 

At this time.. I was scream & roll on d floor at the same time....

That's all ..
as usual ..
nothing important ~
hehe ~

Aini .. feeling a little bit down...

I don't know how should I say about this ...
but ...
lately I'm been thinking ...
How can I survive this world?..
where ..
I got nobody beside me?..
Honestly .. right now ..
in my house.. if my siblings is around ..
my mom acts like "forget" about me ..
it's pathetic where I'm only brave enough to write here ..
it's been 3 weeks since Angah wasn't home...
now she's here ..
guess what my mom gotta say about her?..
"Angah penat .. mak nak masak lauk fav die la"..
well ... I kept thinking ..
it's won't go away even I wanted too ...
Mak ... haven't you thought about me?..
why U being like this if ur fav daughter is home?..
this weekend my brother told my mom he got 4.0 for his exam ..
guess what my mom do about this happy news?..
"Abang ko dapat 4.0plat...kne bagi hadiah nih"..
"If Apis dapat .. Aan kne beli an gak"..
I'm just keep quiet ... 
they didn't do anything for my birthday..
how come thet act like this to me?..
They knew I was stress about my work ..
Yet.. all they got to say ..
I'm being a bad girl again ..
this bad girl ..
who didn't get anything for her birthday present ..
this bad girl ..
that lack of love from her family ...
this bad girl ...
who tried her best to keep her mother happy ,,
this bad girl ...
who work her ass off cuz don't want her mother fall sick ..

AiNi .. cite pasal pompuan mental kat ofis..

LIFE won't be the same.. Yes. I do believe it ...
BM & BI Mode on la eh ~ sorry ~ -___-!
since aini gado ngan kak ain..
everything she does annoys me...
aini tak dapat nak terime bile die wat baik ..
aini tak tau why but mesty aini rase lain sangat3..
everything she does mesty de something behind it ...
I hate it.. I really really hate it ... 
I wanted to tell her to stop..but I can't .. 
cuz Kak Linda & Kak Amal keep holding me..


de satu ary tuh .. aini treats everyone kat ofis ice cream ..
mse tuh kak linda xde.. so aini tak beli la tok die..
suddenly pompuan tuh tag name aini & said thank U..
it's not aini tak hargai pe yg die wat but 
on what reason ?..she tag my name for??!!.. 
aigooo .. aini seyesly tak suke bile die wat gtu ...
cuz ayat die ..
"Thanks AiNi Aiden cuz belanja akak ice cream"
HELLO!!! aini treat everyone kot.. bkan ko sorg jer!~
so tak payah nak tunjuk baik ok?.. 
cuz AINI TAK SUKE!... 
pasal benda tuh.. aini diam an jer..
xnak ah tgur t die terase ag..
payah btol pompuan mental nih ...


pastu die tag ag...
pasal .. "AiNi Aiden, ur sweet lover coming"
like seriously~~!!! >o<
Ok Ok!!~ aini admit aini PERNAH suke kat laki tuh..
but die da kawen kot !!~
so tak payah la nak sowh aini hint3 dat guy..
cuz aini tak berminat ngan "LAKI ORANG" OKAY?!
yang ko sebuk3 sowh aini tgur die pehal?..
da aini cakap taknak.. means TAKNAK ah!!!..
ko sowh aini sembang pasal wife die?..
Ko giler eh?.. hurm....
sah sah ko memang GILER!.. 
aini seyesly .. not interested nak tau pasal LIFE die..
cuz aini bukan "BUSYBODY" mane pon.. 
aini show my sweet, cutest and loving affection ..
kat orang yang aini rase aini bleh rapat..
(AMIK KO!)... 
FYI gak.. aini susah nak rapat ngan LELAKI..
memang susah... try tanye my brothers..
bile aini rase lelaki tuh okay.. funny & satu pale ..
bru aini bleh rapat .. BUT still got LIMITS!
aini tak suke gak nak "gedik gedik" ...
ngan lelaki yg bukan MUHRIM...
but nak spazzing bout idols.. ON jer...
da lumrah manusia kalo da excited ...
but aini gedik ngan ayah aini.. abang aini .. 
and someone special soon... ^__^
tak salah an gedik ngan family sndiri ..
ah ~ another thing ~ 
his wife gave birth to beautiful baby boy on 1st July~
pasni .. if ko taknak kne marah.. or kne ignore ..
or kne maki .. better to shut ur damn mouth...
ps: aini tau ko gtau En Zaid yang aini suke kat laki tuh ..
En Zaid (Botak Gatai) plak gtau laki tuh ..
dats Y laki tuh cam takut jer ngan aini..
but xpe xpe .. once aini tau d truth ..
siap la korang ... 
aini ni jenis cepat MARAH tau ...




then kak ika (person in charge jage brat aini) datang ..
yang ko sebuk3 tanye pehal?..
an mak ko da jual Herbal Life tuh ..
tak payah nak sebuk tanye pasal aini trun ker tak ...
ko dengki an?.. 
wen aini cakap aini trun berat badan ag ...
ko pegi ngadu ngan kak linda an?..
cakap cam aini trun sebab bukan ..mkn herbal life .. 
but pasal aini makan merit an?..
weh pompuan..
aini takde la kaya mane pon ..
nak beli Herbal Life tuh every month ..
disebab an .. aini ni GENIUS ..
aini amik jalan lain mengong!..
plus aini trun berat badan even now aini mkan nasi ..
cuz aini sapu minyak panas every night & morning ..
minyak panas an bakar lemak ..
ko tak tau ker?.. adik ko pon buat d same thing an?..
Merit tuh cam sokongan jer ...
pesal la ko dengki sangat uh?..


Now...
aini da nyampah tngok ko tau tak ?..
Sorry .. but it's just who I am ...
can't change it cuz U dun deserve my kindness at all ...