I wrote this.. not because I hate my mom.. my dad..
I just need to write it somewhere.. please forgive me...
Don't you think.. I'm tired??
Don't you think.. I'm alone??
Don't you think... I'm sad??
Don't you think.. I'm cried alone??
Along & angah being so selfish..
Abg Apes & Aan juz guys..
They only enjoy their life... while me.. ...
alone at the house..
stuck with my computer...
sometime I need you to understand me.. even a bit...
If you only talk with me..
If only I can talk to you..
How important them in my life..
I'm only asking you...
Please understand me..
If you hurt bcuz of their actions..
Let me know.. so I can cheer you up..
Let me know.. so.. I can understand you better..
don't let your anger to me..
I'm also alone..
I'm also cried...
I'm don't have many friends to keep me happy..
You always nags at me..
That girl totally different from me..
I'm not that girl..
I'm can control myself..
I know how to take care of myself..
Mom.. Please don't listen to them...
When they said..
I can't take care of myself..
I'm only a retard girl...
I'm just need you to believe in me..
It's only keep me company..
Don't you realize..
that.. I'm got nothing??
I'm don't have friends were the same age as me...
I'm don't enjoy myself over the limit..
Please have some faith in me...
I know you don't like me..
falling in love with korean guys..
Please understand that..
I'm only like them...
To be with someone like them..
so.. can you please..
hears the song.. what I'm want to hears.
watch what I want to watch...
It's not always..
Its not 24/7 programs..
I'm tired.. if you keep constantly
telling me to stop..
My life weren't not my life anymore..
Everybody kept telling me to stop..
how can I stop??!!
when I got my smile .. my laugh.. from there??!!
I'm not doing the bad things!
I gain wonderful people from this fandom !
I met many people from being an ELF.
tell me how to stop when you start to love them as YOUR FAMILY??!
I'm cried.. every night...
lonely.. being lonely is the most..
I'm just need one person..
to tell me...
being an ELF..
to hug me..
to whisper to me..
If you are happy. then we will be happy for you...
people tends to have hard times.. now. I'm facing it..
I need to be strong.. these will flies..away..
soon.. I just need to be strong enough..
maybe they're just stress...
I'm should understand them well..
Mama & Ayah.. AiNi sayang korg sangat3 !!!