AiNi.. is angry at the stupid friends. not my friends.. but
Last nite news.. kinda shocking news to me. first. a mom throw her own baby. well. that must mental laa.. so.. I dun blame anyone. but the mother herself. *kalo Melayu ckp.. "gila meroyan"* due to life stress.. I feel sad. to her hubby. lost two important person in his life. But its ady fated. nobody can stop it. Its in Allah hands. The hubby must stay strong and juz moved on. I know its hard. I'm not juz saying this. but. he at least shud live his life. back.. for his loved ones. for his parent. for his family. Life wasn't over yet. juz yet. Think it in positive way. there's must a reason behind all this.. My deepest sorry..
the other story happened in one school at
well.. I cried.. who said.. I didn't? but.. only for
I believe that.. I'm unique .. I believe that.. they are not for me.. I for someone else.
All I have to do is wait. wait for the right guy to show up. Wait for the right time to really fall in love with somebody.. wait.. for being mature enough to handle a relationship. Juz wait and see.. but..
there are times.. I cried... alone... blaming myself.. for being like they wanted me to be.. there are times.. that.. i wanted to juz end my life.. there are times.. I wanted to end all these tears and pain. Once..I posted the suicide note on my
So now.. every time I feel down. I listen to my fav music / song.. or juz laugh at the comedy drama or movie.
as for that chinese girl. She do the same thing like I did. Post the same thing. but. what she get are dares and taunts. not.. a helping hand. I wish I was one of her friends. I wish I can stop her stupid decision. Killing herself over stupid dares and heart break is not the smartest decision of a brilliant & smart girl.. She oni 17 years old ! there so much in her life ! She cud be good doctor.. a good lawyer.. a good wife.. but its too late.. She gone now.. gone forever. Her parent must be in great shock .. as their only daughter now gone.. forever. all thanks to her stupid friends for the fucking dares and taunts. all thanks to them ! Her friends shud be aware of this ! Suicide is not a
that someone else life could be your friends, your cousin or even your sister ! so take notice ! wonder how & what that girl facing everyday.. till she can take her own life.. poor her..
This shudn't be happening at anyone family. Parent expect us to be happy everyday. They raised us.. till we can walk.. eat and think by ourselves. Commit a suicide is not the way how we going to repay all their hard work..
my mom always said.. b4 u act or say something stupid. do think first.. cant that girl.. think bout her mom? who struggle so hard juz to see her baby happy?? and this how she repay back to her mom? by.. commit a suicide over a heart break & stupid dares?!
PLEASE think bout our loved ones not someone who doesn't even love us.. ......
*my tears flow as I wrote this*