After a week can't sleep well..
keep having nightmares..
keep waking in the middle of the night...
I ate sleep pills..then went to sleep super early !
Wow ! it actually works ~ lala ~~
I slept at 7.50PM till 4.ooAM ~ without waking up ~
so now. wake up super early too ~ i'm not sleepy anymore ~
Yesterday. I'm worried bout Donghae and Rayne.
Sunie said after the night 1st SS3 in Japan, Donghae was rushed to the hospital.
I was like... what actually wrong with him? Is he okay? he keep falling sick after the Thai accident !
He keep telling others to be and stay healthy ! but now. he keep falling sick?!
wish I got his number and ask him myself !
When watching "More than Words" where only got Donghae, Leeteuk and Sungmin.
When the camera focus only at him.
My tears just flow.
My heart prays for him.
My eyes can't stop looking at his teary eyes.
I can't hold it back.
It really break my heart.
When nobody answer my question.
When my dad scold me.
I ran to my sister room and crying alone there.
I put some loud music on and just cry.
I know they didn't know I'm crying for them.
But if it did make me feel better
Better I cry alone.
After done my work.
Log in to my account.
Just express my feelings there.
Few of my friends trying to cheer me up.
I really really thankful I got them beside me.
Donghae tweet his photo at Twitter !
with his bestie -Eunhyuk !
When I saw that. In one minute I know.
That he really enjoy being with ELF Japan.
That he really had wonderful time with others.
Somehow I'm smiling.
Yesterday. Rayne didn't online much.
I guess he still mad at me.
Ah ~ wish. this love brings happiness to him..
I'm really worried bout him too.
He kept quiet after that incident.
I should trust him !
I shouldn't ask him that ..
I'm being stupid girl . again.
Now. he being away from me.
I'm did feel bad about that .
I asked you to stay right?
but. if it hurting you.
then. you can go.
I'm not a perfect.
I'm try to be the happiest person.
but I just can't.
I'm just a girl who confused with her own feelings.
Keep making other people hating and angry at me.
Keep making... you hate me.
I'm always be the bad one.
Yes. I admit that.
By the way, I'm happy to see Ryene unnie finally at her home ~
I hope she always stay happy and be fine at all time ~
I hope she can forgive me too ...